Ramblings Before Bed After Working All Night

I've been feeling the financial crunch lately.  I've got my daughter's tuition balance to pay, a washing machine to replace, and Sammy needs a new pair of shoes . . . Seriously, my son (Sam) really does need a new pair of shoes.  He was giving me sad eyes and showing me how the rubber is starting to peel away from the bottom of his Reeboks this weekend.  

Anyway, so I am upping the hours I spend working.  Weekends I get shift differential, so I hit it hard Friday through Sunday.  There are a lot of pros to working at home, but occasionally I think I would benefit from having some other folk around.  I get a little loopy sometimes, especially working at night when it feels like the rest of the world is fast asleep.  

Last night, for instance, I just kept thinking about a post I made a few weeks ago concerning how many calories I can burn while typing (not enough) and then thinking about an old hillbilly song my dad used to listen to when I was a girl, "Work Your Fingers to the Bone Whaddya Get? . . . Bony Fingers, Bony Fingers."  

So, I'm sitting here earnestly typing all these reports while this old Hee Haw song is running rampant in my head.  And I get a mental image of me diligently working behind this computer desk, with my ass getting bigger and bigger and my fingers getting thinner and thinner.  Until all that's left is a big mound of ass spilling out of my desk chair with a pair of headphones stretched across it's width and these little bitty bony fingers perched on top, just clacking away at the keyboard.  

Anyway, I got so tickled I choked on my coffee.  Oh, the joys of working from home!  

On another note, I wanted to thank everyone for their support and encouragement when I shared some waffling about my weight loss efforts in my last two posts.  Blogging is becoming such an important tool in my weight loss arsenal.  Not only does it distract me from cravings and keep me from idly eating out of boredom, but it helps me put things in perspective.  It also helps me feel connected to the world outside, when with the nature of my job I often feel so isolated.  And then on top of that, when I get comments so full of compassion and warmth and humor for the little inanities of my life and mind that I share on here, it just gives me the warm fuzzies.  So, thanks for your comments; they are so very appreciated.  Okay, enough with the mushy stuff already . . . jeez.

So, although my "Mayday" week was definitely a setback, this week was MUCH better from a diet standpoint.  I have eaten with my health in mind this week.  However, I did not exercise because of my sprained knee.  LOUSY EXCUSE!  I could still have done some upper body stuff with my dumbbells and had planned on it, but didn't.  So, when I got the kharmic "fattie" letter string on Blogger, I felt like a giant sloth.  

This is a new week, however, and I will get in some type of exercise no matter what.  I'm also going to break out some meditation books I bought years ago and reread them.  I firmly believe that in order for me to maintain any significant weight loss, nutrition and exercise are just a part of it.  I have to also find a way to deal with all the inner crap (doncha love my technical terminology?) that led to my food abuse to begin with (ooh--and now I'm ending a sentence with a preposition--there is just no end to my boldness today)!  

**Update:  Was going to post this before going to bed when my computer went to the BSOD (blue screen of death).  Anyway, I have now been up all day trying to figure out what went wrong.  All I did was probably make things worse.  Now the computer's in the shop--the same shop we just picked my daughter's computer up from this morning!  Why does everything have to happen at once?  Luckily, my daughter's problem was she just needed a new "memory stick."  That wasn't that expensive; I have the feeling I won't be so lucky.  Not counting the fact that I will be unable to work until I get my computer back.  AARGH!  Anyway, my daughter's back in Louisville and I have no other computer in the house.  So, I drove to my sister's to check my email and add this comment to this post (thank God for autosave!).  I apologize for any grammatical or spelling errors or convoluted thoughts--I don't have time to edit like I usually do.  So I will be MIA for a few days.  I look forward to checking up on everyone's blogs when I get back!